You're everything....

Week 1, Day 1
How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?


I want vulnerability. I crave to be weak, but be okay with my weakness. Is that too much to want? It is hard, yes. People are constantly telling us that it is wrong to be weak, being weak means you're a loser. And in this society, losers are not acceptable. It all comes back to being good enough. Growing up, boy or girl, we need to know that we are good enough. We need to know that we are loved and accepted. Anyone who says they don't want that is lying.

So, some people may be reading this (if anyone at all reads this at all) and wondering what I am getting at. This summer is going to suck for me, because I am out of my comfort zone. I am away from all of my closest friends, and I have been forced to get to know people who only weeks before were mere strangers. I have had deep talks with people whom I never would have guessed. I have spent most, if not all, of my nights in an apartment besides my own, staying up late at night crying with these people, sharing my life with them, growing with them, and learning to sincerely love them.

I look back to myself only a month ago, and it is crazy what I expected of this summer. So far, none of the things I expected to happen have happened. So what do I want from my summer?

I want to be able to know and love who I am.
I want to be accepting of being vulnerable.
I want to be able to be weak, and also be accepting.
I want to be able to extend grace not only to others, but especially to myself.
I want to let down all of my walls with God, and maybe even with others.
I want to further my spiritual walk with my Lord.

So, throughout my walk, I am going to be journaling about the tough times, which I will try to find joy in, even though I know how tough it is, and how I can share ALL of my feelings with God, even the ones that some people would say are bad. People, there is no such thing as a bad emotion. I promise you.


So, come in. Walk with me. This is a journey I am inviting you into.


Peace, Love, and Chimichangas,
Candace