My best friend is a bitch, and so am I.....

My best friend is someone I have known since 3rd grade. You know, one of those relationships that has withstood crazy trials. I moved away for two years and came back to my hometown, and she treated me as though I never left. She has accepted me from the beginning. She has become more of a friend to me, and she is family. She is home, she is my best friend. She loves me more than most people can even imagine. She offered me a home when my parents gave me the boot, she is harsh with me when I need it the most. The night when I found out the guy I liked was interested in my best friend, she let me sleep with her in her bed, and we watched 'A Walk to Remember' together as she played with my hair and let me sob in her bed. The night when I had a panic attack at a club, she drove me to my boyfriend, and let us go back to her room, and we all slept in her bed.

She has been with me through everything. She was the one who told me that everything my father said was a lie, and she was the first person who ever told me I was beautiful, and made me believe it. She is amazing. She has taught me so much about life, and some of her morals I find are much more admirable than anyone else's. I wish everyone in the world could know how great she is.

The thing about her (and I) is the defense mechanism used, of being crass and sarcastic, using wit as a weapon. We both fear rejection so much, that we turn into complete bitches. Here is my thinking; if someone chooses not to be friends with me, I will understand why. It is because I am a bitch. But, if I were to truly put myself out there as I am and someone were to reject me and still not want to be friends with me, I would be so hurt. And I believe this is why I love her so much.

She was the first person I was ever 100% myself around, and she still loved me. We say that humans cannot love unconditionally, and I agree, but I do believe that we can come pretty dang close. And she is the only one who has ever loved me as unconditionally as can be. I was stupid and she still loved me. I was a drunken whore and she still loved me. I was whiny and annoying, and she still loved me. She is the only person who has never asked me to change who I was. Everyone else has. Maybe not right out saying it, but hinting at it. Not Samantha.

We are both over-protective and we put up walls. This is truth.

I remember coming to BGSU as a freshman being so scared that no one would like me. I also remember feeling so lucky as to have my best friend going to the same school as me. If no one wanted to be my friend, I at least had her. And I still have her, and she still has me. For the rest of my life. She will never be able to get rid of me. I don't care if I make thousands of friends, no one will ever be like her. This is not to say that I do not love my other friends. Believe me you guys, I love you. But, I love her on a different level. I am 19 years old, and I don't know much about life at all. But, I do know that she is my best friend and will be for the rest of my life. I don't know much at all about my wedding, but I do know that whenever it is, Samantha will be my maid-of-honor. Heck, at this point she is the only one I know of for sure that will be in my wedding! I keep expecting everyone else to just run from me!!!!!

She has never ran. I don't know why she still sticks around, but she does. It is crazy! I am crazy!! I don't care if we love 100 miles away or a few blocks away, we will not be shaken.

I believe that everybody should have one friend like her. Maybe not exactly like her. But, someone who loves them all the time, and who accepts them completely, and will cuddle with them if need be. Someone who won't leave you for their significant other (God knows I have had so many friends do that to me!). Someone who would drive 2 1/2 hours across a state if you really needed them. This is why she is my best friend, for now and always.



(I am blowing the whistle, Samantha has the construction hat on [:)